I do not remember most of these things but from his facial expressions I can’t tell they were bad, and if what they say about alcohol is true then am not a good person and neither am I a lady. I did things that surprised even me. I do not know how to recover from this but I know I must.

I woke up with a red face and swollen eyes and with bruises on my knees and forehead.  And honestly speaking I do not know how I got them. 

All this was in the name of having fun, celebrating my 22^nd birthday. Had I know the outcome then, there are things I would have avoided like alcohol.

My friends, each one of them have given me an account of what transpired that Saturday night but you know we all perceive things as per our interests, so I have been trying to will myself into remembering these things but to no avail. I will most probably never remember. So in this case I will have to take other people’s accounts of that night and make do with them.

As a way of dealing with this major milestone in my life I think I can now confidently say that my drinking days are behind me. It might have been the third time I have gotten drunk in my life but I do not think I would want a repeat of the same; It has taken from me something precious.

I have to say though there was one good thing that came out of all this, I now  know that alcohol brings out the worst in me and that  its best I stay away from it.

So until this matter is totally forgotten, if it ever will. I will not sip any alcohol or use any other substance that has the ability to impede my judgment. I will stay clear of all these things and lose myself in books and walks 

 I will come here weekly and try making good stories that do not have feelings of shame in them. Happy stories,with catchy beginnings and even catchier endings.